Yay it's Monday!

Monday means that The Kid is in school. The Boy is at work and I have the entire morning to myself!! I like this! Even through after next week The Kid will be home for two weeks straight and I wont have the Monday like today. Whatever. I went to Yoga this morning and even through the sun is shinning, I feel a bit gloomy. I think it's because I realized that the challenge is slowing winding down with SBL and The 10 week yoga challenge. I'm trying to train my brain not to think too far ahead because then I start to freak out over things like.."How am I going to pay for classes?" "I don't think I can live without Yoga?" etc..etc...I've been working on this for 5 months!!! I didn't give myself a real finish line. I know I wont let all this hard work go to nothing. It's taken this long to get into this for myself and now it's seeming like I feel sad if I cant keep going. I have to keep going. I kept trying to push these thoughts out of my brain in class today...and some thoughts went away..and some went into overdrive and frustrated me. My Fixed Firm pose wasn't hard to get into today. I have to tell myself. It's long ways from the first scared day I walked through the studio doors. It's been a long way from when I almost threw up outside Carl's studio.  Even when I'm frustrated I usually walk out a couple thoughts lighter. There is no reason for myself to doubt myself. I swear its like I need a hammer to bang those thoughts out. I guess its just another process to work out. Gotta go...talk to you later everyone!