Oi.....the insanity!!!

Well....Just back from Carls....I weighed myself and there it is....a 2 pound weight GAIN. I haven't been much sleep the past couple of weeks..and it go to the point that yesterday I went to the doc to get my Ambien back. I don't know if it's stress from the holidays or what...I need sleep...and judging from the lovely two pounds..just in time. I actually woke up pretty good this morning. That doesn't mean I like getting in the morning regardless. There wasn't too many people this morning. I think there was a total of 7 of us this morning. Come on people....this grump got up....so can you!! Anyways. It was a nice workout....broke a sweat and had a nice challenge on the TRX. I'm probably not going to do a double today. I don't have too anymore since the challenge is over...and honestly..I want a tiny break. I'm going to go back to working out 6 days a week..but only do one workout a day. Come January I'll set myself up for another self challenge. That'll do pig..That'll do. Talk to you tomorrow!

At least I made it.....

Well...today was a day of yoga. I decided to go to the 10:00 class because once again I couldn't get to sleep. I think it was because I had two sodas last night. I finally weaned myself off soda and when I have have soda now you would think I would have some kind of wild night. Nope...just sugar keeping my butt up. So today wasn't my best day at all. My right hip is acting up and I guess the nerve was starting to pinch a bit. Triangle didn't happen today and it sucked. I'll be back at it on Monday I guess. Talk to you later..and no  Dr. Pepper after 10:00 PM!!!

Thursday morning therapy.

Good Morning!! I'm attempting to get my blog done before noon and before The Boy wakes up. I love my Thursday Morning Yoga. It just seems right to me. However I realized during the first time I try to lock my knees that I forgot to wash off the lotion from the night before so I'm a little slippery! Hahahahaha...it's okay. I have my yoga shorts so its all good in my little world. Today was good. Kaci said something about when looking at yourself after you think you've done bad or fall out of a pose..to acknowledge yourself. I do that all the time to myself when I mess up or fall out. I cant say a four letter word out loud...so I usually look down with disgust or probably make a ugly face at myself. So I have decided that when I make a mistake in the yoga room or in the real world..I'll try not make a disgusting face or look away. I cant say I'll give up the F word or anything...but I need to put a new spin on how I react. I cant believe the 10 week challenge is up! I cant wait for the next one because next year I want to devote more time to yoga. I love getting there at 9:15 and having that time for myself. There is no one else to worry about during that time. Just me. I had to laugh because last Saturday I went to pick up dinner at Angelina's and I asked The Kid if she wanted to go with me...and she said "No...I want to stay with Daddy". I kept saying..."Cmon..we always go together...who's going to share a piece of bread with me in the parking lot?" Finally The Boy said..."Don't moms usually want to get away for a few minutes from their kids and family"? I told him...I had my alone time this morning in yoga...and now I want to spend time with you two. It wasn't until I was driving (alone) that I realized that I said that. My time for myself was in Yoga. I thought that was interesting. It's 12:05...I guess I went a little past my deadline. That's okay...the world didn't fall apart did it? Talk to you tomorrow and have a nice day!

A tale of 215.....

Another day of double duty!! It wasn't so cold this morning so I wore my favorite No Fear shorts that when I first wore them..I swore the Velcro was going to rip apart the first day in class. Now there a little baggy and I don't worry about them busting open in the middle of class. Of course I ignore Carls scale...I just shrug it off and put my shoes back on and assume my place in class. Today wasn't too bad. It wasn't anything that I cant do..I did however like that we did a new move. It was a plank that we had to lift one leg up and then the other. THAT was challenging..and I could feel it about 2 hours later while getting out of my Scion. So afterwards I get The Kid off to school and rush home to get ready. Now...I swear I'm going to make a check list and put it near the door. I seem to always forget something while I'm getting ready for yoga. I decided that I would just wear said No Fear shorts to the studio and change there. I would change back into the shorts and sweatshirt for the ride home. Gross...I know..I come home commando most days but I like to take my shower at home because...I like a shower longer than 2 minutes and it's not like I have to be anywhere else afterwards. Sooooo.....off to the studio I go. I'm totally into it..I think I got it together!!! Until I reach into my IKEA bag to take out my shorts...and they are MIA! NO SHORTS!! WTF!!?? I know I put them in there!!! AAGGHHHHHH!!!!! I wasn't happy....and I couldn't check my bank account to see if I had enough money to buy another pair. GGGRR....SO.....I ended up wearing my precious No Fear shorts into the room. The very first classes I actually wore my No Fear shorts in the room. I have 2 sets of pretty No Fear shorts to be in fact! Then..one day there was a sale...and I tried on a real pair of Luluemon shorts! My life was changed!!! It was so awesome!! I now have two pair because to me..they make all the difference in the world!!! AND today...I had to wear my No Fears. Ughh....It wasn't the same!!! I survived and wore my damp shorts home...and looked for the shorts I was supposed to wear today. I think they ran away from me right now...they know they are in trouble! Anyways....so I peel off all my clothes and check my weight. It said 216.7. All I could think is.. really?? I just want to hit 215!! What is that??? 3/10 of a pound??? How do they do those calculations in the Olympics again?? GGRR...I was happy for a loss..but I want to have a full 20 lb loss!! I'm so freaking close!! CMON! TMI WARNING HERE!! So I go to take my shower and I remember what a friend told me..."No salt the night before weigh in and take a massive dump!"......hmmm.....;) SO....I take care of business and shower and jump back on the scale......215.00!!!!!!!!!! Damn it finally!!!! So that is the story today of how I reached 215!!! Hope you found it entertaining...and remember kids..Remember your Yoga shorts!!! Talk to you tomorrow!!!

Yay it's Monday!

Monday means that The Kid is in school. The Boy is at work and I have the entire morning to myself!! I like this! Even through after next week The Kid will be home for two weeks straight and I wont have the Monday like today. Whatever. I went to Yoga this morning and even through the sun is shinning, I feel a bit gloomy. I think it's because I realized that the challenge is slowing winding down with SBL and The 10 week yoga challenge. I'm trying to train my brain not to think too far ahead because then I start to freak out over things like.."How am I going to pay for classes?" "I don't think I can live without Yoga?" etc..etc...I've been working on this for 5 months!!! I didn't give myself a real finish line. I know I wont let all this hard work go to nothing. It's taken this long to get into this for myself and now it's seeming like I feel sad if I cant keep going. I have to keep going. I kept trying to push these thoughts out of my brain in class today...and some thoughts went away..and some went into overdrive and frustrated me. My Fixed Firm pose wasn't hard to get into today. I have to tell myself. It's long ways from the first scared day I walked through the studio doors. It's been a long way from when I almost threw up outside Carl's studio.  Even when I'm frustrated I usually walk out a couple thoughts lighter. There is no reason for myself to doubt myself. I swear its like I need a hammer to bang those thoughts out. I guess its just another process to work out. Gotta go...talk to you later everyone!

Better late than never?

It's 12:52 and I'm using my phone to write my blog because The Boy is home tonight. I have no clue why I find this so funny. Today was Carl and it was a toughie. 40 seconds on. 20 seconds off and no breaks today.I survived the most part of today's workout. The side twistys with the ball at the very end totally did me in. No more skipping for me that's for damn sure. It's basically starting from scratch and I knew it. I appoligized to Carl for not being there and I'm back to getting myself back on schedule. Hate to cut this short, but I have yoga in the morning so I have to get thyself to bed. Night night and talk to you in the morning!!

Mommy, when did you get a sweater that says Bikram Yoga???

Yes that was Bryttneys first words to me after school. I guess she does pay attention to when I'm talking about yoga. ;) Sorry kid, you get one when your older. Your only Six! Today was another yoga day. Getting the body back into it's old schedule. One side is still better than the other and I did hear a pop in my back during the first back bend. Those always make me smile. Balancing Stick....not so good today. My brain wasn't quite wanting to click just yet and it didn't want me to go down further than I should. My goal is to attempt the Toe Stand in a few months. I can kind hang out 1/2 way into position right now...and I'm too scared to go down any farther. I think I'll come crashing down like a stack Legos. Oh and get my hands into the right position for Eagle. My hands are still floundering. At least I get my arms into position. I felt so embarrassed that I had to hold my arms in the beginning...my SIX year old could put her arms into position...and all she did was look at some YouTube videos for 5 minutes!! Me...it took about 5 months. ; | Anyways...its done and in the books..and yes..I did buy a pink Bikram sweater. I'm wearing it right now with a lot of pride and I hope everyone else sees it too. ;)
Have a great Thursday everyone!! Carl's workout is tomorrow...be ready to read my suffering and complaining. It's all Love I swear!

I give!! I give!! Gotta go through Hell to get to Heaven.

I didn't make it to weigh-in on Tuesday. My insomnia came back with a freaking vengeance Monday night. I didn't go to actual sleep until 4:00 AM. There was nothing stressing me...no worries that were keeping me up. It was like I kept telling myself...seriously.. you have to get up in 6 hours to exercises....no wait...5 hours....hmm...4 hours is do-able...3?????...2....Oh Hell I give up!!! Oh how I missed my Ambien. I haven't needed one since early September. If only there was a midnight yoga class....that would have taken care of my sleeping problem real quick. I didn't do my double like I usually do since who knows when. I felt so sucky..I took a Sominex out of desperation last night to settle down and got  7 hours sleep and after dropping The Kid off at school I went to Yoga. I knew it was going to hurt today...and I knew I needed some type of punishment. I saw that Helena was teaching my class and I felt relief. Actually I didn't care who would teach the class. I just knew that walking into the door at Bikram would be some kind of relief to me...I think I actually felt relieved during the Standing Breathing Series.  A couple of times I just wanted to cry out of frustration. Some of the poses which I should be getting better at...sucked. I just know when I got home I felt so much better. I'm going back to yoga tomorrow morning. Carl will be Friday. I'm going back to my old schedule because I have learned the hard way when I get off it...my insomnia comes back and my misery becomes my company. I've worked too hard in the past 5 months to let that shit destroy me now. Talk to you tomorrow. Sorry for being a slacker.